About Garrick – My Caretaker (From Selina)
Sometimes the universe brings people into your life for reasons that you don’t understand at the time but over time…over time you know that they were always meant to be a part of your soul. That is how I feel about my Garrick. When we first started talking, it was a mutual admiration society and appreciation for snarky/sassy comments. We recognized each other’s soul and became fast friends.
I was in fact considering someone else to be my Daddy when I received the first message from Garrick expressing his appreciation of my snarky comments and posts towards posers in forums on Fet. However, two Primal people of like minds…I think we lasted 3 weeks before I giggled out “Thank you Daddy”. It took us both by surprise and we both hurried off the phone.
Poor guy, he worked so hard to keep things platonic between us as long as he could, but if you’ve ever danced with the Devil by the pale moonlight then you know your chances for escape are in vain. We are to much alike, the Yin in me calling to the Yang in him. We both knew the reasons not to and yet…we did.
During the months that he was my Daddy, he was an AWESOME Daddy. In the months after we imploded, I was heart broken as was he…but it took that hurt to make us realize that we do love each lover and are the best of friends. We share a darkness inside of us that not many understand or want to share. He reached out, we began to talk and over time…we healed the wounds and found the ground that we couldn’t before. Instead of Daddy and Little, I’m still Little but he is now my Care Giver. This soothes the Beast in him as well as the Feline in me. Now when the darkness beings to dance, we know the steps and avoid them. Being that I am a HUGE Batman fan, Garrick once told me that he loves me as The Joker loves Harley Quinn…the darkness in me calls to the darkness in him and it balances both of us.
However, I recently thought about this after a punishment that I received and have decided that he is more like the poor guy in the Gremlins who received the mogwai for Christmas. He thought it was all sweet and nice and when he let down his guard for a moment it tricked him into feeding it after midnight and almost took over the world. I believe the reason Garrick still acts as my Caregiver is that he feels responsible in some way. He can’t unleash me on an unsuspecting world! Goodness no, he needs to protect unsuspecting Daddy Dom’s from being taken advantage of and eaten alive. From taking me home, feeding me after midnight and allowing me to run amuck (Giggle). Yep, I’m a dork and you all love me!!!
I don’t comment on Selina’s blog very often because I’m a rather private person and my job keeps me very busy. I do however feel the need to comment on being Selina’s Caregiver.
I stumbled across her snarky post one day and it made me laugh and all I did was send her a quick note telling her how much I enjoyed her snark. We traded messages all day and she ticked something in my mind and it didn’t take long until I wanted her naked, exhausted and utterly spent at my feet. My primal side rarely reacts that way to someone so quickly I took notice. Admittedly I wasn’t really looking for anything more than someone to flirt and exchange witty banter with.
Rather quickly though we progressed to phone calls and as we got to know one another something else developed. Yes the “Thank you Daddy” comment scared us both, I really wasn’t looking for a girl, I’d had too many failed attempts at long distance relationships, and scared too many girls off because I am fairly twisted in my kinks. (and no I am not going to list them out, if you want to know drop me a note on my journal). I really enjoyed talking to Selina and was honestly worried that if I let her in I would scare her away like I have others.
Well Sel is a persistent little minx, she wormed her way past my walls, to see my darkness and while some of the kinks I expressed to her she had zero experience with she didn’t run screaming from me either. She in fact sought out other submissives who enjoyed some of those kinks to better understand them and me. This was a first in my experience, I never interacted with someone who would put the time and consideration into trying to understand what I got out of something. Then she opened up to me about her darkness, and in doing so showed me one I didn’t know I enjoyed.
As to being her caregiver: She needs one in truth as Sel pushes and pushes trying to always get her way as often as she can and when she’s running free she does tend to get herself into some trouble. She needs the structure, and the reminders that there are consequences to her actions and behavior. Selina has made me a better Daddy, and a better man. She challenges me in good ways and helps me grow as a person not only as a DaddyDom.
Do I feel responsible for her? Of course I do, Do I need to warn all the unsuspecting Doms, Daddies, and Wannabes out there about her? No, for two reasons. 1 being I enjoy hearing her snarky cutting remarks to the wannabes, and two the Daddy who lands Selina as his babygirl will have to figure her out like I did and earn her respect, trust and devotion.